Reasons to stay in bugsy

• the show will be awesome
• I get to have a splurge gun
• my friends are doing it
• I’ve done every other school show
• Sam might come and see it
• it’s at the ‘drome

Reasons to quit bugsy

• I know none of the lines because SOMEONE told me there would be no rehearsals during exams
• I am hating every moment of the rehearsals
• I have a one line part, in contrast with 289 for dog
• I’m obviously completely useless
• I can’t sing
• it means that I have to come into school during the holidays
• I’m dying my hair blue
• did I mention I hate the rehearsals?

Fuck. I do not know what to do. At all. I will kick myself if I quit. But I might be kicked out anyway.

God I miss Tongues of Fire already. It hasn’t even been twenty four hours since I last saw them. I didn’t have to be me there. I could be someone else. Someone more confident, someone needed, someone talented. I could talk to people who didn’t know about me from other people. No one looked down at me for the way I dressed, or how I was. And if I did get upset, which I did, the Sams were always there to cheer me up, and Andreas to let me cry until I didn’t need to anymore.

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.

Why are my three best friends currently in different countries? I need them. Ellie’s probably not going to Elliot Minor. Just perfect. Absolutely brilliant.

On the bright side, Sarah wants to set me up with one of her boyfriend’s friends.

I hope this is saving to my journal. Hmm.

Yesterday I had the weirdest bloody dream ever – but I didn’t want to wake up ): I was with Nayno and Ellie, and we were at EM (for some reason in London? I’m going to B’ham!) and somehow we managed to get super near the front, and I had something on my t-shirt about sheep and alex saw it and was like “what does your t-shirt say?” and then he saw it and was like D: XD and I was like “I’m part welsh, I’m allowed to say that” so blah blah. Concert went on, and Alex was hanging out by the merch at the end… I’m pretty sure I bought some merch – I can remember seeing Tokio Hotel?! and we were just hanging out and chatting, and we got a picture together, me sitting on the counter and him pulling a face. And then he told me he was inviting me to their next practice before a concert – because it was Ali’s birthday XD and then I woke up ):

I have NO IDEA why Alex was in there and no one else, but that’s my dreams for you! Ally was talking to me last night, so that’s sheep and Tokio Hotel, and I was planning what Mikey in FOCS was doing in pictures, and I was excited about EM (which I’m buying todayyyyyy!) so that’s all logic in my dreams.

And now I have to go and flail about my bloody maths gcse. If I fail I’m blaming Elliot Minor.

Holy shit, over a month! I suck, don't I?!
February was pretty cool - especially half term at Ally's! We acted out (well, she) Skins, Interview with a vampire, labyrinth and lord of the flies. I did my drama performance, it wasn't too bad. Had school photos - holding judgement on that!!

I don't like my haircut (which is about two weeks old XD), but I shall live with it and spike it up again.

The school musical is Bugsy Malone, which should be pretty awesome. I just HATE auditions (yeah, I know, I should get over them XD), and I'm going to apologise in advance for my butchering of an American accent.

Beast has like... three chapters left? God, it'll be good to finish another! The first episode of Decidians is written up, we're onto the last three scenes of the second. Most of them me.

And Ryan is Tom's fuck buddy. LOL. I want to bring in a Mikey, I'll think about it.

Laters!
 

Alanna's such a slut!

Anyways. Pretty good today. Sarah liked her birthday present! Aww, her and Sam make such a cute couple.
Penny and I finished the first episode of Decidians; we reckon it's going to be called Stranger Than Me. Basically, so far Mikey has shown off Mandible House (and his schizophrenic tendencies) to Andrew, Cassandra has arrived in The City, Luis is being Luis, Cai has been perving on Tom and Tom has been teased. Not bad for a first episode!

The second episode is like all based on Hood and Xylia XD Which means I have nothing to do, apart from some joints where the avians and vampires coincide. I can't write Hood, Xylia, Luis or... actually, that's pretty much all XD We have a really small cast list! Although, Matt does make his first appearance in the second episode. As the strong silent vampire behind Rowland XD

I just suck at writing more slapstick humour ;)

Rangers tonight!
 

My hoodie smells a bit strange. I dunno why XD
I've learnt it's cold in England in the middle of the december when you're wearing 3/4 length combats and a tank top. But the effect is purdy. I need to redye my hair though, I have brown sections.
I want to go dakota blue! - not until study leave, Jezebel.
So the AST teacher is coming in next week apparently. That should be cool. We've got more done now.
LOL.
For Decidians we've created a girlfriend for Cai. She's his childhood sweetheart, blonde, blue eyed and bubbly. Wins over even Luis... then it's revealed that Mikey turned her and Cai kills her. Big finish, ja?
I LOVE LOVE LOVE SPANISH.

"Lora, your tie is supposed to have five red strips."
"*counts all strips* one two three four five six seven eight..."
"Five RED."
"*counts the thin end* one two three four..."
"On the thick bit."
"...Well what would you know? You're not wearing a stripey tie!"
"Because it would clash!"

"Is it simpatica that I've spelt wrong?"
"What? Erotica?"

And then I clambered over the table when he wasn't looking to write RENT on the board. Took him a good ten minutes to notice, and he found that pretty amusing XD

"no trannies here!"

Sure, Mr H...

LOL, apparently I was "very good" in the drama workshop - I didn't have a clue what to do! I was trying not to cry XDD